Cheers to another year, another month and yes another blog post!
Wow oh ow! Look how far we have come beautiful people!
No lie, I was like man oh man what am I going to say? Honestly, for the last few days I was not feeling it (whatever it may be).
As this day approacehed (my birthday-yay!) I was doing alot of soul searching about what I have accomplished, where I am at in life and how I have started off the new year thus far. For me, the new year started off great but I felt like as soon as it started I gave in to the tactics of the devil and some areas of my life I slipped up and fell. Yes, it is so easy to say just get back up but when it seems like you have been fighting and fighting to do something right and one thing that you know you could have handled properly you handled like a fool that in itself personally did not make me feel cool (insert emoji with sunglases). I felt like a failure and at that point I felt like I was “grieving the Holy Spirit” which resided in me.
As the day went on I felt the atmosphere of sorrow starting to surrond me and the clowds of sadness hang over my head. I began to think too much but in it all I tried to gather the little bit of hope I had to keep fighting. Fighting for peace, happiness and the strength to keep on enduring in this Christian walk.
As today hit (my birthday) I woke up with a great joy and happiness and readiness to move forward. The previous night was a tough night yet I managed to take sone time and really commune with myself and most importanlty with God. A time that I really needed. I purchased a a book called Chasing Real and so far the book hit straight on the nail with what I am dealing with.
His manifestations may look different from your expectations (p. 13), a sentence in the beginning pages of the book that really was a wow moment for me.
I am over here tearing myself down for where I am not and what I have not yet accomplished; I failed to accept that His plot for my life may be different then what I envision yet it will be just as beautiful most likelymore radient.
“A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps.” -Proverbs 16:9
We must always keep in mind that the little picture we paint does not compare to what God has in store for us, let us give it all to Him and let Him diect our steps. Lets us trust Him. Sometimes its easier said then done but it is possible and each day I learn that more and more.
“And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.”-Galatians 6:9
This is my go to scripture, when I feel like all my efforts are in vain or if I fall down and feel as though I do not have the strength to get back up. As I type this my heart and mind is being reminded once again, KEEP GOING! IF YOU FALL KEEP GOING! IF IT DOES NOT TURN OUT HOW YOU WANT IT TO, KEEP GOING! DONT GIVE UP KEEP GOING! (Imagine Jesus Christ screaming that to you and cheering you on as you run to reach the finish line.)
Yes, the last few days I was feeling weary and my mess up made it 100xs worse but as God gives me breathe I will keep going. For me, my loved ones and especially for Him. My being on earth does not warap around how I feel but what He has called me to do and who He has called me to be.
As i conclude this, I want to encourage you all to keep your head up and keep on going. Even when you mess up or it looks ugly and icky, dig your way through and dont only see the light at the end of the tunnel but embrace it. Let God be your vision and you strength.
Lets leave our downfalls and bad habits back there and lets strive to be a better from here on out. It may take some gloomy nights or beating yousrelf up but remember what matters is your heart. If you have the heart to succeed then succeed!
I am off to enjoy my birthday, another day to make a change!
I love you all beautiful people and God bless ❤